shitty shithole

so far this seems to be a pretty sucky week and a pretty sucky friday.
at this point i'm feeling terribly moody and highly volatile.
dont need any bullshit.
everything seems to suck right now.
if only i can scream at the top of my lungs.
dont anyone dare to irritate me.

i'm looking forward to my holidays - a break away from the sucky life in spore.
just thinking about it, being able to afford my own holidays is such a feel-good factor - being financially independent.
no wonder they say: spending enables the world economy to remain in motion.

Yahoo - "Dolphin"

do all finance industry people suck?

so what if you're like the second man in the company?
so what if you have a fancy job title?
so what if you are educated in managing finance?
so what, so what, so what?

can't stand rude people who made stupid senseless remarks & accusations.
indeed they "ought to be shot!"

what right have you got to come around pointing your ugly fingers at us and accuse us?
you should jolly well look ur stupid ugly face in ur big mirror and realise that you aren't that great either.
such a public nuisance. an annoyance to the world.
less of you, less trouble, less issues.

don't go throwing your heavy weight around because frankly, nobody gives a damn.
you should seriously watch what comes out of your mouth: your condescending remarks and body language & not forgetting that damn bloody annoying voice!
argh!

if you're not a team player than jolly well get lost.
look who's the one trying to sow discord. seriously man.

GET A LIFE! elsewhere but here!

uncommon ground

if you're stupid enough to do it, then you should be stupid enough to see it coming.
what's the damn point of even bothering.

damn it. ass.

blue monday

had this sudden urge to blog so here i am.

it's another one of my ranting posts...
not in one of my best moods today...
blueblueblue.
i usually dont feel this way. not sure why today was such.


somebody seems awfully good at delegating tasks.
as if i don't have enough things to do.
send an email and no thank you whatsoever.
whoever taught her abt manners. Gee.
that's why i always wonder, if pple from that industry really have zero personality.
what a pity. God is fair. *shrugs
shall not stoop to her level.

i realised today over lunch, i need something uplifting. i need to feel energised and recharged. ready to take on the next challenge in a way... maybe a spa can do that for me?

i also concluded i need to talk to my boss tmr. it's either i'm not managing my time well or i really have too much work. but anyhow, my committment to work has lapsed, no doubt. i hardly put in my usual 10-12 working hours like i used to anymore... sigh... someone, save meeeeeeeeeeee.....

everyone wants next week to quickly come and quickly go. little did we all know, we're almost into tuesday already. just 8 days more to the event. i really hope everything will turn out just fine. everyone's hard work and efforts will pay off.

im looking forward to my holiday... a getaway to help me clear the system, maybe just for a while... leave the worries behind and just enjoy what nature brings.

here i am... thinking about so many random things, there my work is waiting for me to begin.

i shall not procrastinate any further!

Wonder Girls - Nobody But You

Robin Sparkles "Let's Go to the Mall" (full version)

fiat 500 barbie

the details are spectacular... u go Fiat!

flubug

tis the season to be unwell fah-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la...

sigh...
it's at times like these that i crave for the most forbidden stuffs:

1. no nut chocolate brownies (the fudgy sort)
2. famos amos no nut choco chip cookies
3. chicken nuggets
4. kim chee fried rice
5. kim chee ramen
6. hot plate korean chicken
7. korean ginseng chicken soup
8. waffle pancake with blueberry jam
9. popeyes fried chicken & mash potato
10. pancakes with maple syrup
11. curry favour - jap beef curry rice
12. blujazz - fish n chips
13. coffee club - muddy mud pie
14. bangers & mash
15. calbee - hot & spicy chips
16. cheesy hot dog with lotssssssssaaaa cheese
17. prego - pasta & tiramisu
18. gd ol' spicy ramen
19. phad thai
20. old chang kee's potato curry puff
21. Don Pie - chicken pie

never mind, the above shall serve as a reminder when i get well.
i shall endeavour!

The Shins "Australia"

my happy song =)

Taylor Swift - Love Story - Official Music Video w/lyrics

handphone stealers

fine. ok. fault us for being careless to leave our handphone around or to accidently drop it out of our pockets/bags without knowing.

whatever.

but the point is, don't you even know it's evil to steal handphones?
can't afford then don't own one.
why do you need to be so bloody desperate to take other people's things?

handphone stealers should all just rot in hell.
BURN!

How I Met Your Mother -- CSI: Style

broke as broke can be

i need to work on severe cost-cutting measures.
times are bad.
and my purse strings are in need of alot of pulling & tugging.
if my social life is seemingly non-existent, pls understand why - i really need to save money.
shall attempt to be cheapo - it's the way to go from now.
no more spending!
save save save!

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
And where there is sadness, joy.

O divine master grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love
For it is in giving that we receive-
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned.
And it's in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen

bills

just when i thought that getting slapped with a $500 over credit card bill was bad,
try $785 now.
omg.

i'm dead.

i desperately need to stop spending,
and stop volunteering to pay first.

talk abt mood swings

great.
now for no rhyme or reason dad's pissed at me.
i really don't know what the world is coming to.
why is everyone so freakin' hard to please.

already 24 and still being controlled.
where's the sense in that?
seriously?

at times like this, i wish i had my own place of solitude and refuge.
solitude doesn't seem so bad now.
at least i'll have peace by myself.
without having to watch my back all the time in case someone decides to get pissed off at me.
just get off my back. seriously.

talk about randomness.

fed up is what best describes my current situation now.

trying to see the sense in everything

whats the bloody point of salvaging things now?
especially after all that has been said and done.
airing dirty linen for the world to see and talk about.
is it just seeking attention or what is it?
i really don't get it.

i remember telling you before, in a relationship, it takes 2 hands to clap.
n just last nite you tell me about it being a one way street.
who ever treated this as a one way street?
who?

i get that you need a longer time to cool off and so i let you.
how am i to know how long you need?
even after the so-called cooling off, you still could be so antagonistic towards me.
is that all i'm worth?
you jus being pissed off at me?

when was the last time i picked on ur shortcomings?
when was the last time i told you things i don't like about u, the way you handle things, the way you are or the way you drive?
when did i have expectations of you that i told to in ur face?
when did i have expectations and not say it?
when did i not give you credit?
when did i not tell you that i appreciate you taking the trouble to send me home after all the Clubbing?
when did i not tell you i appreciate the things you do?
when when when?

and now, i get told off one issue at a time.
exploded in my face.
just based on 1 issue. which is a small matter to begin with.
all we needed was to resolve it. to come to a common understanding.
but you chose to stay angry. you chose to be disappointed.
you could have talked to Grace, Shiqin, ask them for ways to help the situation.
but you chose not to.
fine, maybe you think they are MY sounding boards, therefore you feel it's not right for you to talk to them.
as much as Grace is my cousin, my best friend. she's your friend too.
i have no doubt that she will be objective thru it all. if only you just tried.

if it was all so important to you, why did you have to leave it all till now.
after saying all those hurtful stuff.
being so antagonistic and sacarstic.

for the record, you're not the only person hurt.
you're not the only person feeling shitty.
you're not the only victim here.

everytime we had issues, when did i post stuff about you on MSN or FB?
when?
by your last post last night and deleting/removing all our photos n such.
isn't it all clear enough?
i texted to ask if you still wanted the relationship.
guess what, you didn't reply.
how do you think you made me felt?

happy or sad, good times or bad, everything you announce to the whole world.
now even by you not eating, your whole family knows whats going on.
real smart move.
as if it's not bad enough that your whole FB & MSN contacts are probably thinking i'm such a bitch.
now your family too.
thanks alot. really.

i hated to think that our r'ship has an expiration date of 6 months like all your previous ones, because i held to my heart, the statement you made about me being different.
maybe you were just saying it.

if you know me well enough, you'd know how i handle things.
you'd know i'd be ok if you just talk nicely.
why must there be attitude problems for the sake of it?
we're all adults here.
why is there a need to make such a negative point?

admittedly, yes i have a lot of committments, yes i have a lot of friends whom i am not willing to let go off. it's not the first day you know me.
isn't r'ships about mutual acceptance?
what good is a r'ship if both parties are just going to keep pin-pointing faults and short-comings?
would you rather a girlfriend who has an exceptionally good social life, who includes you occassionally?
or would you rather a girlfriend who has the usual bunch of friends in her life and spends time with her family?

i know you don't like it that i don't put your name up here.
and yes, my closer friends would know who i'm talking about.
but still i choose not to put names up here.
because i'm very sure, years from now, i'll know who i'm talking about.

ya, it's good while it lasted.

Mayonnaise Jar & Two Beers

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full..
They agreed it was..

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your children.
Spend time with your parents.
Visit with grandparents.

Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.

need for inspiration

'Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge..

One thing you can give and still keep...is your word.

You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.One thing you can't recycle is wasted time.

Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.
Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away.
Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.